Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Round 2 Game 3

I wiggled out of Marc's arms taking a deep breath wishing in some ways that I would have fallen asleep and just slept through my alarm so I wasn't heading to a hotel to meet Eric.

As I pulled away Marc's eyes opened. Noticing it was still dark he asked what time it was.

“5:45. Go back to sleep.” I said slipping my jeans on.

“Where are you going?”

“I need some air. Don’t worry I’ll be fine.”

“I’ll come with you.”

"NO! Go back to sleep." I replied.

"You sure?" He asked groggily.

"I'm sure."

Marc didn't argue which I attributed to him getting less than 2 hours asleep so far that night.

I put on my jean's and a New York Ranger's t-shirt. I whipped my hair into a sided ponytail and headed out the door. I drove toward the airport hoping to arrive before Eric, but rush hour traffic had other plans. I was blessed with yet more time to think about what was about to happen, my conversation with Hank and the stupid feelings I was having for Marc.

I pulled into the airport and up to the hotel around 7:15. As I walked into the lobby, I caught sight of Eric leaning against the counter checking in. I just stood and watched him. It only took a second for thoughts of Hank to leave my head. While thoughts of Marc lingered slightly longer, watching Eric made them fade fast. Soon I could feel my body getting ready for him. I saw him grab the key cards in his hand, and I could hear him say my name, making sure I'd be able to find him. As he turned he caught me staring at him which made his crooked smile grow, and even from the other side of the room I could feel his thoughts.

He made his way to me through the small crowd of people. Our bodies and lips connected in a fashion that resembled a collision on the boards in the arena. He kissed me furiously, but it was no trouble matching his intensity. I was thankful he didn't head straight for my neck, this made our intentions slightly less obvious to the travelers that filled the lobby. I felt his hand slip slightly under the back of my t-shirt as he guided me to the elevators. We stepped inside, and I could see the disappoint on Eric's face as an elderly couple also entered. Patience was not one of Eric's virtues. As the doors opened he guided me out of the elevator using the hand that was still tucked under my shirt. The feeling of him on my skin gave me goosebumps, and I could feel my own anticipation as we made it to the door. Instead of opening it Eric pushed me hard up against it kissing from my lips to my jaw and down my neck. He reached my spot, and I let out a small moan signaling him I was ready for the rest of this adventure. His next move shocked even me as he pulled my t-shirt over my head right there in the hallway. In my mind I was begging him to just open the door, but the rate at which I was breathing wouldn't allow me to speak. Only after his hand roamed my body did he slide the card into the door allowing us to enter.

We laid side by side naked and dripping sweat when we finished. I could feel sleep taking over my body as my eyes closed.

I felt Eric turn so he was facing me, but I didn't open my eyes.

"You're beautiful," he said. I felt a blush come to my cheeks, but I just gave him a small smile. "I have to leave soon," he whispered breathily into my ear.

"Mmhm." I said with my eyes still closed currently hungering only for sleep.

His fingers found my shoulder and trailed down my arm followed by a line of goosebumps. I wondered what he was thinking, but his next words surprised me. "Tell me about the goalie," he said leaning over to kiss my neck again.

My eyes sprung open; why was he asking me about Hank? "Nothing to say." I replied. Eric was the last person I wanted to talk to about him.

He was nipping at my skin now and my body was starting to tingle again. "I think you're hiding something from me Caitlin. Marc told me you took him with you to Costa Rica."

Now he rolled on top of me bringing his face down to my neck and letting his hands roam. My eyes closed, and I let out a small moan. "Do we have to talk about this now?" I asked softly barely able to choke out the words.

"Oh do you want me to stop?" he asked, moving his hand away from the intimate places they were currently caressing.

"NO!" Please don't stop, I thought.

"Then tell me about Hank," he demanded biting down on my skin releasing sensations of pleasure and pain.

So this was the game he was playing. He wanted to hear about me and Hank. He was actually getting turned on.

"He's in Sweden." I replied trying to give him something.

"Tell me more; tell me about Costa Rica." His hands moved faster and harder.

My back arched at the feelings he was stirring inside me, and my mind clouded as I gave him details. My mouth said words and phrases that I never expected to say revealing intimate details of my time with Hank that I never expected to say out loud. I soon discovered that every word was worth uttering as Eric gave me the most incredible experience I'd ever had.

I collapsed onto the pillow, my eyes closed once again in exhaustion. Eric's lips came down on my forehead.

"I'm going to get a shower. Do you want to join me?" he asked.

"Umm, I'm good right here," I said not even attempting to look at him.

"You are good. I'll give you that." I could imagine the smirk on his face as mine blushed, but I didn't give him the satisfaction of opening my eyes. "When am I going to see you again Caitlin."

"I'm thinking of maybe coming to Boston for game 5."

"Come to Boston for game 5," he replied and walked into the bathroom.

Sleep overwhelmed me, but I think I felt Eric kiss my forehead as he left.

Around 2 in the afternoon, I woke up and for the first time in my life I wished I had a best friend that was a girl so I could tell her about my morning. Wow! I sat up in bed, yawning and stretching, wondering what I should tell the boys I'd been doing all day. Something caught the corner of my eye, and I looked over to the pillow that Eric's head once laid on.

There was a little white box tied in a red ribbon. There was no note, so I untied the ribbon and slipped off the box lid. There was a beautiful silver bracelet inside that held two charms. One was a small horseshoe, a symbol of good luck. The other was a small silver disk with tiny little writing. It read "you're my good luck charm." Tears came to my eyes and for the briefest of moments I became that sentimental girl I fought so hard not to be.

Looking at the time and figuring Eric was probably back in Raleigh, I pulled out my phone. I also knew he was probably with Tanya so a conversations wasn't in the cards. I sent him a simple text that read: Thank You.

A couple minutes later he texted me back: No, Thank You!
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On my way home I realized that being with Eric was like a drug for me. He was a strong enough force that he made me numb when I left him, which was exactly the drug I needed. I'd crawl out of his bed and be completely incapable of feeling anything toward any man. As much as I tried to convince myself otherwise, I loved my times with Eric. I was kidding myself even thinking there was a chance I capable of breaking it off with him. This brought me to the realization that being the type of person who would continue this with Eric, made me the last person that could ever be with Marc Staal. Marc would never forgive me if he found out, I'm not sure he would even forgive me if we were just friends. I looked down to my bracelet and tried to hold on to the numbness that Eric offered me, and it worked.

I walked into the apartment and was attacked by three very tall boys. "Where were you, we were worried, why didn't you leave a note," were some of the phrases I heard shouted in my direction.

"I needed some girl time. Would you three like the details of my bikini wax?" I asked crudely.

"Eww" they said in unison and dropped it.

My eyes caught Jared's as I was stepping into my bedroom. He knew where I was and he hated it. I just closed the door behind me and got ready for the game.
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Round 2, Game 3

Marc, Jared and I sat on the edge of our seats as Jordan and the Penguins took game 3 into overtime. The score was tied 2-2 during OT intermission and I listened as Jared and Marc shared glowing reviews of the way Jordan was playing. I smiled wishing Jordan could hear what they were saying. With 11:23 left in overtime Kris Letang scored the winning goal for the Pens, and we sprang from our seats along with 17,000 other fans.

My eyes fell to the out of town scoreboard, and I pointed out the score of the Carolina game to Marc and Jared. Carolina beat Boston 3-2, also in over time. Yet another way to celebrate!

In the locker room we joined the celebration. I got my sweaty hug and kiss from Jordan, and his smile was priceless. I couldn't help but feel it was a little brighter having Marc and Jared here to share it with him. I smiled seeing how happy Marc was for Jordan despite the previous loss of his NY Rangers. I wondered if the situation were reversed, if Jordan would be as happy.

I was pulled away from Jordan, as Geno's arms slid around me and pulled me backward. "Where my kiss?" Geno said looking down at me. Geno was particularly excited tonight after scoring and breaking his slump.

"I was saving it for you Geno." I leaned up and gave him a quick kiss right on the mouth.

Geno's face pinked up, and as I turned away I noticed a set of eyes on me, Marc's. Before I could get to him, I was grabbed away by yet another set of hands. Kris Letang pushed me into his locker. "Where's mine?" Kris asked. "I scored the game winner."

"That was never our deal," I said in a sexy voice.

He leaned in pressing me softly against the back of the locker and our lips connected. I let him kiss me and was about to offer him my tongue, when I felt Kris's body ripped off of mine. "Get off of her Letang," I heard Marc's voice say. He took my hand in his. "We'll meet you outside," he said to Jordan and pulled me out the door.

I was mad and getting madder by the second as he dragged me down the hallway toward the exit of Mellon Arena. "What the fuck are you doing?" I yelled at him.

"I just don't want you getting carried away."

"That's not your decision Marc. You can't drag me out of there like that. How many times do I have to tell you I'm not a child!"

"Maybe until you stop acting like one!" he yelled back at me.

"Oh lover's quarrel." I heard the Russian accent and cringed. Marc's reaction was similar.

"Shut the fuck up Ovechkin," Marc spat.

"So you're not denying you are lovers. I wondered how long it would take you to tap that." His eyes looked me up and down.

"I'm warning you," Marc said, and I could feel how angry he really was.

"When you're done with her, send her my way. I'd love to get some of that."

Marc's fist came back hit him square in the jaw. Alex fell to the floor. Knowing how close we were to the visitor's locker room and trying to avoid a brawl, I grabbed Marc's hand and pulled him down the rest of the hallway and outside of the arena.

Marc stepped away from me, and shook his hand. His knuckles were red, and while I didn't think it was serious, I could tell they stung. I didn't know what to do. I could hug him, thank him for sticking up for me, apologize for being so difficult, nothing seemed appropriate. I followed my instincts and walked out in front of him. I stepped up close to him and when he didn't back away leaned up and put my lips softly on his. I pulled away keeping my face close, but my lips found their way back almost magnetically. His arms wrapped around me as our lips moved ever so slightly. There was no escaping the butterflies this time. This kiss was sweet and sensual, almost innocent, not hot like our other kisses yet not like the kisses a brother gives his sister. I blushed as it ended. Marc just smiled when he looked at me, and I looked up at him smiling back, hoping he understood how much I liked it.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Round 2 Game 2

Round 2 Game 2

I rested my head on Marc's shoulder as the plane to Pittsburgh took off.

"Tired?" he asked.

"Umhm, ya, I had some guy in my bed last night."

"I'll bet he was smokin hot too!" Marc added, and we both giggled.

"What's the plan for Pittsburgh?"

"You are going to apologize to Jordan."

"Caity!"

"What?"

"I know, I'm going to apologize to Jordan."

"That's better." I said snuggling in closer. His arm went around my shoulder.

"So that's it then, you're just going to fall asleep now?"

"Umhm. Unless...you wanna talk about Miss Sunshine."

"Miss Sunshine?" He asked and then realized I was talking about his mystery girl. "Go to sleep."

I leaned up and pulled away. "Why won't you tell me who she is? I want details Marc." I said firmly.

"There's nothing to say. I've given up on it."

"What? Why?"

"Now there's another guy. I think he can make her happy. He's good for her."

"Are you crazy? You freakin love her, and you're not going to tell

her."

"Ok so tell me what you would say right now if Hank told you he loves you."

"He's not going to tell me he loves me."

Frustration built in his eyes. "But you don't know that, maybe he does love you. Just answer the question."

"I guess I'd freak and get as far away from his as possible."

"Right, and I'm guessing that's how she would react to me."

"Ok then just sleep with her,” I said only half kidding.

"Caity! Is that all you ever think of?"

"What? I’m not just me being crude. I just figure if you're half as good at that as you are at kissing, she won't let you go." His face turned red instantly. "Think about it Marc."

"Go to sleep Caity," he said putting his arm around me.

"If you insist." I replied, and fell asleep a few minutes later.

I woke up as the plane started it's decent into Pittsburgh. I was now laying across the seat with my head in Marc's lap. I had a blanket on me, and Marc was playing with my hair. I smiled and gazed up at him. He didn't notice, as he was busy looking up at the skyline of Pittsburgh from the plane window. I closed my eyes and wondered why anyone would pass up Marc Staal. How could this girl not notice how amazing he is? How could she not jump at the chance to be loved by him? As much as I hoped Marc, (and the other single Staals) would always be single, I also knew how Marc was capable of loving, and he deserved to be loved back. I heard the announcement to prepare for landing, but I decided not to move. I just laid there with my eyes closed.

Marc brushed my hair from my face and traced my jawline. "Hey beautiful, time to get up."

My eyes opened, and I smiled at him. I loved it when he called me beautiful. I've been called beautiful countless time, by countless men, but something about him saying it gave me butterflies. I sat up and buckled my seat belt like a good little passenger. "Thanks for letting me sleep." I said.

He smiled at me and covered my hand with his.

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In the cab ride back to my apartment I checked the game scores. The Pen's lost to the nasty Capitals 3-4, but the Hurricanes won 3-0. My happiness and disappointment canceled each other out, as I shared the news with Marc.

"I love how wrapped up you get in our games," he said.

"How can I not get wrapped up in your games. God I was there when you guys were kids and just horsed around playing hockey in the back yard. Who knew you would all grow up to be so amazing? I wish I could be at every one of your games; Jordan's and Eric's too. I don't know what I'll do when Jared gets to the NHL." Marc laughed. "Why are you laughing at me?"

"I'm not laughing at you. I'm amazed by you." The look on his face was so sincere.

I checked my phone; I had two voice mails.

One was from Jordan, his voice defeated. "Hey Caitlin, by now you've probably seen the score. We're coming home tonight. We should be home around 1. I can't wait to see you. Oh and Jared's still with me."

Eric called. I wasn't surprised that he called, but I was by the message. "We won Caitlin, and I didn't even have my good luck charm with me. Listen, I talked to Jared. He said you're going to Pittsburgh. I've got a day off tomorrow, so I thought I'd take a

detour on my way home from Boston. I'll be there in the morning."

Typical of Eric to assume I'd be available to him. What am I going to do about that, especially with Marc here. I decided not to think about it.

Marc and I drank beer and watched movies while we waited for Jordan and Jared to get in. I heard the key go into the knob of the door and I jumped out of Marc's arms and ran to great the boys. "JORDAN!" I yelled.

He wrapped me into a huge hug holding me for a couple moments before

he whispered, "I'm sorry Caitlin." I gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"Here's your surprise." I said pulling him toward the living room.

Marc stood up and Jordan's eyes got big. "You're not going to hit me again, are you?"

"I'm sorry Jordan. I jumped to conclusions." Marc gave Jordan a man hug.

"I owe you one," Jordan replied, "but you're forgiven for now. I need some Ovechkin tips."

Marc and Jordan sat down and talked hockey while I pulled Jared into my room.

"I have a problem Jared. It’s Eric."

"Oh dear God, what now?"

"He's coming here tomorrow morning. Did he tell you know he was coming?" I asked him.

"No, but he's been asking about you. Where you were, and where he can track you down."

"Jared, You know why he's coming. What am I going to do? Jordan would flip, and Marc is here."

"I don't know, do you really think he'd risk it now that Jordan knows?"

"That's a good point."

"Caitlin at some point you just have to say no to him."

I nodded in agreement, but couldn't figure out how I was going to do that.

Jordan was starving so we ordered Pizza and hung out. I just sat back watching Jordan, Marc and Jared interact. I loved how they could tease each other one moment, yet show an amazing amount of support the next. It reminded me of when I'd watch them from the bushes as a shy seven year old. In some ways they were every bit as intriguing to me now as they were fourteen years ago.

My phone buzzed in my pocket. I wondered who was calling me at 2:30 AM, but when I saw the name a smile spread on my face. I quietly walked to the balcony door and slid out. As I turned to shut the glass door behind me my eyes caught Marc's. I wasn't sure what I was seeing in them but whatever it was, it made him turn away quickly.

"Hi Stranger," Hank said in that beautiful accent.

"Hello," I replied more seductively than I intended.

"Since you haven't returned my other calls or texts I figured maybe a middle of the night call would get your attention."

"You really don't have any problem getting my attention." I teased.

"Caitlin, why are you avoiding me?"

"Hank, I'm sorry. But we're talking now, right? How's Sweden?"

"Good, but I really should have made you come with me."

"I've been to Sweden."

"Yes, but not with me."

"Mmm good point. Are you coming back to the states anytime soon?"

"Do you want me to?"

Careful how you answer, I told myself. "When you're ready." I said softly.

"I can't leave yet, but when I come back, I want to come back to you."

"Hank, I...I don't know, we've spent one weekend together. I'm just not sure, I'm ready for something more serious."

"Caitlin, I'm good for you. We are good together."

"That we are," I said smiling into the phone.

"I'll let you get some sleep, but I don't want you to forget about me."

"I don't think that's going to happen."

"Make sure you don't. Just a couple more weeks."

I sat there for a moment after our call a little panicked. What was I doing with Hank? Could I really be with just him? My mind wondered over all the men I'd been with, the fun I've had. The thought of being with one person just didn't seem like something I could do. It would be like setting myself up for failure, setting Hank and I up for failure. I wondered what it would do to my relationship with Eric. Hank knew about Eric but didn't mention it when we were together in Costa Rica. As my mind continued doubting everything between Hank and I, the sliding glass door opened.

Marc smiled at me. "Why are you out here by yourself? I thought you were on the phone."

"I was. I just wanted to think for a bit."

"Should I go?" he asked sincerely.

"No!" I said grabbing his hand and pulling him down to sit next to me on the balcony.

"Pittsburgh is really pretty. I always wondered how you chose to live here with Jordan instead of staying in Thunder Bay or you could have come to New York."

"Jordan asked me." I answered honestly.

"You two always were two peas in a pod. I hope he looks after you."

This comment got under my skin a little, and I stood up and leaned off the balcony overlooking the city. "I don't need anyone looking after me Marc. Why can't you understand that?" My tone was soft, but he knew his words bothered me.

It took only a moment for his arms to come around me from behind.

"Sorry, Caity. I'm just protective of you." He turned me around so I was facing him. "You know that right?"

"I guess, I just hate you thinking of me like I'm a little kid. You always look at me like that."

"Is that really what you see when I look at you?" His lips came down on my forehead.

"Don't you Marc? Don't you see the little girl you used to tease and chase around?"

Marc tilted my chin up and gave me a soft kiss on the lips, which I liked more than I should have. "That's not what I see," he said continuing to look into my eyes. I was feeling butterflies from his soft kiss, and I was afraid if I looked up at him he would see it written all over my face so I just looked down. "Don't you know how beautiful you are? Don't you see how every guy looks at you?"

"And that's not brotherly?"

"Caitlin!" he said, his hands going to his hair and tugging. "I can't have this conversation with you. I just can't."

"I don't mean to frustrate you." I could see how frustrated he actually was, and I could only assume this went back to the stupid girl thing from when we were kids. Why could I just not get him, and the even bigger question, why did he give me butterflies when he kissed me even with a little kiss like that.

"I know Caity. I know," he reached for me and snuggled me in under his chin.

My phone buzzed with a text and Marc's arms fell from around me. I looked at my phone, it was a text from Eric which I didn't feel comfortable reading in front of Marc so I jammed it back into my jeans' pocket.

"Was that the goalie?" he asked.

"Yes." I lied.

"Isn't he who called before when you came outside?” I nodded. “I think he's got it bad for you Caity."

"I'm not sure Hank and I are going to work out."

"Why?" he asked softly.

"I think he wants more from me than I am ready for." Marc gave me a look pleading for more details but I couldn't bring myself to talk to him about those details, especially when my mind couldn't help but go back to how much I keep wanting him to kiss me. Ah, this is Marc Staal I reminded myself. "You know what? It's late, I'm going to go to bed. Are Jordan and Jared asleep?"

"Ya Jared's on the couch and Jordan's in his room. Mind if I bunk with you?"

"Of course not." I said turning away from him and heading inside. Did I mind? No maybe I really wanted him to bunk with me.

I walked in grabbed shorts and tank and headed toward the bathroom. I got changed and checked my text from Eric.

My plane arrives at 7AM. I booked a room at the Hyatt. I'll see you there.

God he was presumptuous, but he did seem to have his bases covered. He wasn’t even planning to let his brother’s know I was there. Something about him coming to Pittsburgh to see just me gave me deep sense of longing for him.

I closed my phone and headed to my room. Marc was already in bed. I walked around to the other side and crawled in. As I expected Marc's arm swung around me and pulled me in. I took that spot under his chin and tried to fall asleep. Soon his breathing slowed, and I knew he was asleep.

There was no sleep coming to me that night. My mind was filled with thoughts of Eric, Hank and now Marc. It was becoming obvious to me that I was starting to have feelings for him. I always liked it when he held me but it never felt different then when Jordan or Jared held me. Now it was feeling different. Soon thoughts of Eric and Hank actually left and I thought about the two times Marc and I kissed. There was so much emotion in those kisses, emotions I didn't want to have, especially toward Marc who already had this girl he was in love with. Having feelings for Marc would ruin everything.

"I am stronger than this. I can control this," I told myself over and over again. Soon my phone buzzed, 5:45. I was planning to go to bed to think about whether or not I should meet Eric. The distraction of Marc's arms around me made it impossible, and now it was time to go. This is what I needed, a distraction. I needed a big distraction, and Eric could give me that.

I wiggled out of Marc's arms taking a deep breath wishing in some ways that I would have fallen asleep and just slept through my alarm so I wasn't heading to a hotel to meet Eric.

As I pulled away Marc's eyes opened. Noticing it was still dark he asked what time it was.

“5:45. Go back to sleep.” I said slipping my jeans on.

“Where are you going?”

“I need some air. Don’t worry I’ll be fine.”

“I’ll come with you.”